Points of interest

Points of interest

A pizza slice bought at a gas station will taste like pizza bought at a gas station.

Three cats shed A. LOT

If you organize yourself including taking yourself out of your pyjamas and putting on bra and lashes
for a meeting at your home said meeting will be cancelled.

Cancelled meetings are the best kind of meeting to have except it will have to be rescheduled thus making you repeat the process.

When your grown, tall nonverbal children who are developmentally toddlers misbehave on their buses or in their programs it is expected that you will "talk to them" and fix the problem.

Often times the good intentions to clean storage closets and cupboard are just that....good intentions.

There are people whom for years you will believe to be your close friend will use you for what they can get from you and then for reasons only known to them will attempt to destroy your credibility and reputation within a shared community.

I am very naive.

Rememberance Day and decorating for Christmas are two unrelated things. Not decorating before
November 11 does not make a person more respectful of those who have lost or dedicated their lives to serve their country than those who do decorate.

Grief is a way of life and exists every single day when your child dies.

Grief is probably the same for those who lose anyone integral in their lives.

Grief is stupid.

Kids dying is stupid.

Obviously the skill of posting from my phone is not quite fully established in my repertoire!  An entire blog post with pictures never appeared.  I wonder where it went....

Autumn 2015

I have just been informed how to post off my phone!  This could be life changing!

We have been having a spectacular autumn weather wise.  We have had hints of flurries the odd day here and there but for the most part we are enjoying close to summer temperatures.  I still have flowers blooming in my front garden which is amazing on a number of levels!  Each weekend I think it might be last of the warm weather so we best make use of it outside. It is so much harder in the winter as I'm sure you can imagine to keep the kids active or at least my kids. 

This weekend will be dedicated to one of the kids engagement party and the errands created by that. One of the jobs will be to pick up the cake and deliver it to the venue the day before. This is anxiety provoking!  It is only two tiered but you know when the bakery doesn't deliver tiered cakes due to their not wanting to assume responsibility if something goes wrong you know it might be tricky.   I'm looking forward to Friday's errand of picking the candy for the candy bar. Who doesn't like that?!  I will need to deliver right after purchase however to ensure there is some left for the guests!  I'm not worried about the kids getting into it but myself. Nothing goes down better than jelly tots or sour dinosaurs!

I sure hope that your autumn is playing out as well as ours!

Here are some of our pics from our time at the park last weekend.

I realize I have been absent from the blog.

Life has been moving forward full steam ahead.  We have celebrated monumental birthdays, started school, recently enjoyed Thanksgiving and I am fully engrossed in planning an engagement party for one of my daughters.  I know right?!

When I began my parenting journey decades ago with the plans I had, never in my wildest imagination did I foresee any of my children marrying.  It never occurred to me that any would develop, change, overcome the obstacles they were born with to grasp hold of the milestones that the majority of society takes for granted.  Not only is this the case for one of my children but most likely will be the same for two more.  Crazy isn't it?!

It's funny when we envision our lives playing out one way how life steps in and shows you how it really will be.  I never thought I would have children that spoke and was accepting of that.  When some of my children did acquire speech I know that I was provided with a gift I didn't know I wanted.  I would still be fine if I did not hear words uttered from their sweet lips however I know my life is so much more enriched that I can.

This takes nothing away from my children who speak to me in nonverbal ways.  I receive their messages loud and clear as I believe they do mine.

This is my favourite time of year.  I love all the holidays and the special events of each season.  I hope that all of you feel the kindness of family, friends and strangers alike over the coming months.

I promise I will try and do better with this blog....

Because she is beautiful.  Because she is missed.  Because each day is a struggle without her.  Because she is loved beyond measure.

Ailish Angelia Wheatly

It is four years, five months, seven days since she left.

Ailish Angelia Wheatley

I thought knowing that there would be a day when she left that I could prepare myself.  Eleven years of preparation and nope.  Still is devastating.  Her loss weakens me at the knees and causes my body to ache more than what my age suggests is appropriate.

I would do it again.  I would say yes to being her mother all over if given the choice.

Ailish Angelia Wheatley

To have been her mother for eleven glorious years, for her siblings to have loved her, for the community to have known and learned from her,  all gifts.  Priceless gifts.

A lifetime has passed but her final gift has been the memory my body has of how the weight of her felt in my arms.  The tickle of her long thick curly hair on my skin as I held her.  The texture of her skin.  Though the memories are precious they also cause pain.  I was told often that as the process of grief moves on and time passes that the tears that come with losing a child are replaced with the smiles of memories of happy times.

I call bullshit.

Still hurts.  Still is nauseatingly painful.  There are always smiles and laughter that come with thoughts of good times even in the early days but in no way do they replace the agony that is the reality that my child is gone.

Ailish Angelia Wheatley

Never ever EVER forgotten.  Not for a day.  Not for a second

All night I dreamt of donuts.  All night.  Woke up to tend to one of the kids, went back to sleep to enter into a different dream about donuts.  I love donuts and all however it is safe to say I will not need to see one for a very long time.

By a long time of course I mean like a week or something....