Saturday, June 23, 2012

Sadness Smackdown

Sadness has a way of jumping up and smacking you in the face.  There you are going about your day and then there it is.  No rhyme nor reason sometimes and then others it stems from any number of triggers.

People always talk about getting through all the firsts after the loss of a loved one.  You know, first birthday, Christmas etc etc but what no one tells you is that every year after there are what seem to be more firsts i.e. this is the first year after the first Mother's Day since Ailish has been gone. There are a million of these.  Last year right at this time we did the butterfly release party in honour of Ailish.  Happy Anniversary.  That was pretty much the last time the majority of my friends wanted to come together to celebrate her.  Not that they don't love us or Ailish but enough all ready.

Unfortunately it is never enough and the sadness doesn't end or at least I don't see an end in sight.

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