Rhetorical question

So just how crazy are you when you make a conscious decision to put on the clothes that you last wore as you held your daughter for her last hours alive and then...when she wasn't?  The same clothes you wore for days after unwilling to part with anything that you associated with her being alive and that maybe retained her smell or maybe a strand of hair. Never mind. The question was rhetorical. I know the answer. Good news though...I'm not crazy enough not to have washed them. You're welcome.